Will Maney

Year 35

Wed, 17 Mar 2010 12:26:00 GMT

Year 35

Sept 2002 - Sept 2003

So now that I've gone and said it, let me try to share it in some coherent way (yeah, right! good luck!!).

The link for some more background on the 'Child-of-Pain' see: http://soulinflight.wordpress.com/

These next few years are what delivers me to now, today. We'll be done soon... whatever that means...

Year 34-2

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 13:32:00 GMT

Year 34-2

Let me try to move through this year and 'get-over' my hesitancy to put it out there (so to speak). I'm deep into the throes of whatever this process still is, but something is very, very different...

If I allow my turth to be remembered by my human, will I be able to accept it? If not, I 'know' some other aspect of this human condition will! Don't know how I know, but I know. I've done all this before, and this is what I do.

Year 34

Sat, 6 Feb 2010 12:40:00 GMT

Year 34

Sept 2001 - 2002

Well, here goes... Tomorrow I celebrate my 57th birthday and not sure how long for this world my body is meant for but I see no reason not to share what happened next. Nearly 9-years ago I was brought a story to integrate as part of my recovery and healing and it seems to me that I now ought to share it -- the story brought to me to consider -- since it has produced/facillitated/accompanied the changes that have produced me as I Am today.

Nothing to lose; only One thing to regain.

NOTE:

APPARENTLY 'THEY' are editing and the 69-second missing piece is by 'THEIR' design, so from 3:36-4:45 has been officially blocked...

SO --

I'VE EDITED-OUT (to the best of my ability) the 'missing 69-seconds' in order to eliminate the dead-air that appeared before this edit (probably only 1 person had to listen to the original pod-cast with the lapse from 3:36-4:45)

I really could use a technician in my life...

X+1 Factor

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 11:04:00 GMT

X + 1

As a foundational piece to build upon let's look at a way to invite/engage the 'Other' as an intuitive-mediator and establish trust in this original relationship that we tend to ignore.

Year 33 - pt2

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 12:50:00 GMT

Year 33
Part 2
March, 2001 -- Sept, 2001

Okay, here we are! As I suggest, this is the beginning of the last chapter, the collection of the last 9-years that will end in my now, contemporary-time of soon-to-be 2010.
I began this recall last Dec 14th after Lynda/Adam suggested, on Sunday, Dec 7, 2008, that I take the next 40 weeks and recall the last 40 years. Well, I couldn't get it done in 40-weeks nor what is now 52-weeks, but I believe we'll be able to catch-up now.
This past 8+ years have been challenging and difficult but apparently (???) necessary or 'required' and now I look to resurrect the essence, the real meaning, and move on.
The flow of my Truth is approaching like a huge tsunami and what ever aspects need to be washed away will soon be just that - like dust in the wind my past is rolling-up behind me like a carpet or a walking treadmill that is moving through time.

Year 33-pt1

Wed, 9 Dec 2009 17:22:00 GMT

Year 33
Part - 1
Sept 6, 2000 -- March, 2001

Too long as it is, and still not enough time to talk about what's happening both within my mind and then in my life. But this is the year that everything pivots on, this is the time of my remembering coming to get me, whether I like it or not. Whether anyone likes it or understands it, apparently the stage is perfectly set and it's all going to show up now.
Am I ready? Will I allow? Will I fight, deny or at least delay to the best of my ability? Both. Some changes will occur so swiftly that no anesthesia is required; other changes set into motion the resurfacing and releasing of truly ancient wounds.
If ONLY I knew THEN... what I know and understand now...

Year 32

Fri, 4 Dec 2009 17:11:00 GMT

Year 32
Sept 1999 - Sept 2000

With my Dog by my side, mighty changes are coming!
Web-site (thanks Craig!), promotional flyer and advertising (thanks Bob & Kath @ Heaven and Earth!!), horse accidents, horror dreams, hallucinations of the dark side, Prophet's Conference in Port Townsend, WA... all collude to produce an inner fire about to rage.
All the while life on the farm provides all the special effects needed to percolate the perfect brew!

Year 31

Tue, 24 Nov 2009 17:50:00 GMT

Year 31
Sept 6, 1998 -- 1999

Took me three weeks to emerge from the memories after reading the transcripts from '97, '98, '99.
So much happened, and so quickly, in that period that I can't possibly capture in even in 40+ minutes of babble!
But I am now much more settled than I have ever been since beginning this 40-41 year recall.
Once I get 'contemporary' and caught-up to '2009' (10 more posts???) this will all be over with and I can/will get back to now.

Year 30

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 16:25:00 GMT

Year 30
Sept 6, 1997 -- Sept 6, 1998

What to speak of, what to leave out... My consciousness is being played on multiple fronts and my life is screaming by as if I'm in a bubble. The highlights don't do justice but these next 10-years will produce an awakening of sorts that surprises me in many ways.
The attempt to find 'home' brings me to Western Mass. and my leaving behind my roots in Newport. ET-stuff, death-experience recall and a gathering of new forces add to the mix in a mysterious way.
Much is being glossed-over, but make no mistake, I am going to remember.

Year 29

Sat, 24 Oct 2009 11:03:00 GMT

Year 29
Sept 6, 1996 -- Sept 6, 1997

Well, here it is. It's 'official' - if you will. I'm an 'Experiencer' and the anger and rage now have an outlet. Suit coat and tie aside, I'm not fooling myself here. I'm losing my mind, my every-day, (if it ever was) ordinary mind. Can barely sit still. Walk, run, fly away. Avoid all mirrors!!! Don't look at what's happening.
Re-reading these transcripts has hit me all over again. It's taking so long to integrate this. I'm taking so long to integrate this. Time's up. Got-to-let-go; Can't let go!

Year 28

Thu, 8 Oct 2009 13:54:00 GMT

Year 28
Sept 6 1994 - 1995

Moving right along let's get ready for opening that can-of-worms that I've been carrying around and looks like it's time to look deeply.
Lots of reasons not to go there, but you know me...

Year 27

Tue, 6 Oct 2009 21:38:00 GMT

Year 27
Sept. 6, 1994 -- Sept. 5, 1995

Stuff is moving and so are we. Jamaica Plain, MA to Newport, RI, counseling as relationship issues heat up, a specter of a child vies for my attention, more ACIM workshops, promises kept and broken, physical damage to the one hand, intuitive skills being teamed with psychic glimpses... and all the while a building anger fails to mask some foreign rage.
Yup, that about sums it up!

Year 26

Mon, 5 Oct 2009 13:26:00 GMT

Year 26
Sept 1993 - 1994

It's been nearly two months since I last posted on this journey and my 'real-time' life is busting apart at some very old seams! I've got to wrap-up some background so I can get back to 'now' and these next couple of yearly recalls are lumpy at best.
As far as why I'm doing this only time seems to know and that time is still in the future. Some of the biggest changes are taking place right now and reviewing/remembering the journey is challenging at best, but there's some pieces that demand to be looked at again.
Here goes...

The Process of 'The Plan'

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 13:33:00 GMT

Look again, and when you are ready, see what you have not seen before!
Letting go of those 'thoughts-gone-awry' that have taken on a life of their own and now avoid the review that will most certainly undo their power of definition over you ("I was never that thought!!!") is never done alone, but done with your 'Inner-Other' who has been patiently waiting for you to see it all differently.
Let's be willing today to trust The Plan and allow Its Process.

What's the story here?

Mon, 7 Sep 2009 12:34:00 GMT

Let's make the most of Mercury going Retrograde!

This month of September, 2009 we'll have lots of opportunity to see for ourselves the 'story' we've been participating in and decide for ourselves if it's the story we want to identify with, and begin to understand that we pledged allegiance to it turning that story into a false-god.
Perhaps one of the biggest concerns our human has is that we awaken to the truth of who/what we are In-Truth and realize that the story we've been participating in is in no way any more real than any other story we might be involved in.

So, what do you say?

What's the story here?

To be continued...

Mon, 17 Aug 2009 13:14:00 GMT

'To be continued...'

As an aside -- I will continue the story when I return from a family outing. The next 15 posts will include crash & burn in the physical, emotional and psychic realms, therapy sessions, PEER and time with Dr John and finally the arrival of a 'technician' to upgrade my motherboard.
I just wanted to let you know I'll be back after I wrap-up some very old family stuff. I'll be in Denmark from the 20th-28th then back into the story. The day I finish the 40-year review my new, next and without a doubt 'original' life will be active.
Blessed-be!

Year 25

Mon, 10 Aug 2009 13:25:00 GMT

Year 25
September 6, 1992 -- September 5, 1993

Well, here goes; begin divorce proceedings 20+ years after 'first-contact' and try my hand at dating. Pure magical and mystical experience in New Mexico as I retrieve my past life as 'Wounded Eagle' and literally pull one out of thin air at the airport in Albuquerque.
Then just as the sun wraps-up its transit through Capricorn I encounter the most bizarre episode I've ever had that wasn't immediately blocked-out. And as this year ends I begin an eight year dance that brings to the light ancient wounds and all the dressings that kept them in place...

Year 24

Sat, 8 Aug 2009 14:40:00 GMT

Year 24
September 6, 1991 -September 5, 1992

Well, time is moving very quickly now. The Golden Dance Bookstore - an informational annex is open for business and my readings in the back room are allowing me to meet more and more great individuals. By blending my intense study of ACIM along with the delivery language of astrology, tarot, intuition and trans-dimensional experiences I am providing access to information that at times amazes me as I listen to what is coming through.

Workshops in Roscoe, NY on ACIM, my first reading with Elwood Babbitt, severe lower back trauma, intense headaches that seem to require deep soaking in the bathtub, phenomenal psycho-sexual experiences, moving 'out' and ending the 18-yr marriage/20-yr relationship all wrapped-up in one 12-mth package...

What next???

Year 23

Sun, 2 Aug 2009 14:43:00 GMT

Year 23
Sept 6, 1990 - Sept 5, 1991

22 years after the painful mantra of "Got to let go... Can't let go..." my self-activation is now tangible even though predominately unconscious. This year I travel off to the Pacific Northwest on a quest, return find the space within 2 days for what will become The Golden Dance Bookstore, change my name from Bill Maney to Will (I Am) Maney after being informed of the power of my given birth name, borrow money from three different folks and 'open for business' the informational annex known as the Golden Dance.
My intuitive abilities are expanding and my Self-Contact is ever-increasing through a network of already assigned individuals. A bicycle accident on August 12, 1991 makes it official -- I'm here for the duration now...

Year 22

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 12:17:00 GMT

Year 22
September 1989 -- September 1990

Well, the supporting cast is assembled and another phase is initiated. Disbelief, fear, and anger all find their way into several experiences that get delivered into my lap. As I 'hear' my human voice proclaim that something indeed did occur in 1980 I freak-out a bit more before I hide it all away. Then more key players arrive in my 'birthing' process and the out-of-body experiences get written down so I can read them 20 years later...
Take it with the grain of sand that will eventually become the pearl after years of being coated by study and contemplation; but for now let's keep it light since it all sounds so ridiculous to say the least!

Year 21

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 12:23:00 GMT

Year 21
September
1988 -- 1989

Well just as I began this year 21 years ago with the certainty that there was an emergent presence of a dual awareness settling in, so the last month of my current experiences have solidified that fact. That there was always a plan, a path that would find me and weave itself into my circumstances, has shown itself to me again and again over these past weeks. The recall of 21 years ago has put a new perspective on it all and now I hope to speed-up my recollections and get back to being me, NOW.
Here goes...

Year 20

Tue, 26 May 2009 12:00:00 GMT

Year 20
Sept 6 1987 - Sept 5 1988

Well, let the undoing begin! Whether it's 'You can run, but you cannot hide' or it's 'No matter where you go -- there you are!' I was now officially in the program. Didn't necessarily see it coming, but it came, it got me, and took over.
The plan -- I had asked for it to arrive before I ever came here this time around and now it's going to be like a tractor-beam.

Year 19

Mon, 25 May 2009 16:14:00 GMT

Year 19
Sept 1986 - 1987

Life was good. Back in my safety zone of sailing and boat building completely unaware of all the attention being applied to daily details in order to invite the necessary characters to script my release from a past that will be replayed and released.
Alden Yachts was a 'dream-come-true' of a job and it could not last. Whether or not it was self-destruct mode or simply 'promises-kept,' that chapter would be decisive. Yet while in it, the story takes over, and it is often only upon recall that one can see the hand of guidance.
I was still blind and burning through my past at a furious pace. I'm guessing that's what the early thirties are for -- or at least it was for me...

Finding the 'Other'

Mon, 11 May 2009 12:53:00 GMT

Are you ready? It's time to find your Self in all other situations. Everyone is invited. There is no other..........

Where's Willie, Pt. 2

Mon, 11 May 2009 12:38:00 GMT

Whereâs Willie -- Part 2

Just what we needed â a new category to talk about! Iâm going to share some of my ârememberingsâ with you which often occur through song verse and text quotes.
I warn you now, the chances of you hearing what I think I am saying will in no way affect the outcome which is this: you will begin to remember who and what you are in such a time-appropriate way that the light of your truth will shine upon the places we were hiding love (oops! Thatâs from Peter Gabrielâ). Thereâll be no stopping us on this road to freedom once our eyes have seen (I know, I know, sounds a bit like Van-the-Man).
So, as my friend Craig implores constantly: âEnjoy the ride!â

Year 18

Tue, 5 May 2009 14:40:00 GMT

Year 18
Sept 1985 - Sept 1986

Retreating from sense of failure after leaving grad-school due to so many reasons the least of which was a deep unwillingness to accept indoctrination into the language of psychotherapy (DSM III at the time...) I return to the only thing I 'knew' which was boats.
Getting me back on an even keel was required as the special effects focus on attention to detail so as to piggyback as much as possible. Little did I know there was a 'Master Plan' and this time around there would be no escape...

Year 17

Mon, 4 May 2009 12:26:00 GMT

Year 17
Sept 1984 - Sept 1985

Off to Maine to enter graduate school, Diddikai gets trucked to her new home and owner, Aqua-Babies for Nathaniel Scott at age 6-mths, the pressure of committing to a 5-year doctoral program, and the wounds of past surfacing into the mix as I give-up yet again.
Say it isn't so, Willie...

Where's Willie?

Mon, 4 May 2009 11:11:00 GMT

Non-Fictional Dilemma

As I prepared to do year 17 several weeks ago I took a hit from the fact that I do not have permission to speak about the deep personal encounters that arrived in my life in 1984-85 through the life story of extended community. As I contemplated one specific event that shook apart the very foundation of a family I visited in the fall of '84, I knew that I could not simply use coded language to transmit the full significance of an ancient wound arriving at the surface to be reclaimed and then released.
Due to this perceived dilemma I took a hiatus from recall and really didn't know what to expect as a response from my Self as my commitment to recast the story of my life went into a spin mode without draining the wash water. One thing became clear though, the soiled water that had been soaking the fabric of my storyboard needed to be replaced with fresh water. Kind of like selecting the 'extra rinse' option on the front loading washing machine...
It was as if my emotional network over rode my conscious commitment to remember and release in order to move on, and I entered the premise that 'others' would use those troubled years as an indictment in some court of judgment. Knowing that there is no 'other' out-there to judge me, I spent time with my inner judge, giving a listen for a while.
It seems I had indeed left a piece of Self fragmented in exile without knowing that I would never be able to leave this dimension behind as long as there was one piece of Self I judged as not worthy of being me. If all doubt is self-doubt, then indeed it is true that all judgment is self-judgment and the true gift can only ever be that all love is self-love.
I had forgotten this.

So, shall we continueâ?

Year 16

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 13:09:00 GMT

Year 16
Sept. 1983 - Sept. 1984

Finish up college (after 7-yr. spring-break!), receive Nathaniel Scott Maney on Feb 26, 1984, apply to grad school, get accepted to UMO, SELL DIDDIKAI, move to Maine...
It might appear that I am actually going to make it after all! Appearances can be deceiving...

Year 15

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 13:46:00 GMT

Year 15
Sept. 1982 -- Sept. 1983

Another delay as I struggle with 'getting-it-right' by visiting boatyards, welding shops and people from my past. What cannot be expressed properly is the joy and love still waiting to be seen. It was always there, but invisible to my eyes blinded by fear and pain and anger. What can I say...
The opportunity to 'Look-Again // Choose-Again' with a guide that knows how to see the truth is ABSOLUTELY worth the time; in fact, time only exists to wait for us to choose to use it correctly!
15 years down, 25 to go over the next 6 months...
The love was always there, right here, waiting to be chosen to be seen. It's true; it's all true!

Year 14

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 12:13:00 GMT

September
1981 - 1982

Some difficulty in posting this due to ---- well, I'm not sure. Certainly a relatively boring year compared to ones past, but as I move away from Diddikai and boatbuilding and decide to return to school I'm numb in some way. Astrology and Eckankar keep me busy as I begin my personal rebuilding in ways as of yet unclear...

Year 13

Mon, 9 Mar 2009 13:13:00 GMT

Year 13
Sept 1980 - Sept 1981

Well, back to Newport RI for a third time... Clearly not done yet.
Pretty bruised-up that I failed, again, to make the cut into the ocean sailing/single-handed club. Even though my greatest comfort and ease of expression has always been found on a sailboat underway, it's not to be.
On top of that, there was this 'strange' unspoken-about episode we both mutually agreed to forget that seems to have left me even more weird than the average bear, so to speak.
So, back to what awaits us both; back to the unfinished lesson plans that have been on low simmer for 3 years just waiting for something to crank-up the heat.
No problem; here, let me help!

Remembering You

Mon, 9 Mar 2009 10:50:00 GMT

Remembering You

Monday, March 9, 2009
Bristol, RI
5:17 AM

Been up for a bit â drinking my coffee now. Giggling a bitâ
Started around 3:20-ish while I was becoming aware that it was going to rain and that I had put out Lyndaâs trash last night and itâs uncovered so the bins will collect some water and the trash collectors may not want to pick up the rain heavy binsâ
Few options in this moment â which brings up the real point; âconcernâ about what may happen stems from worry that I should not have left uncovered trash bins out that could collect rain water, and in this moment I should/could fret, worry, get upset. Notice the âneedâ or at least the propensity to feel worried that âit should not be the way that it isâ and âsomething needs to be done.â
My attention turns to the awareness of my skin blemishes, my âtherapeutic-woundsâ as I have chosen to think of them.
Time to connect the dotsâ itâs all related, all symptoms of the same underlying error in cognitionâ

I often awake in the earliest hours and sometimes, like this morning, I allow the presence to stay, and get up; but I usually drift back to sleep and dreamtime. But the rain kept me awake, aware that, shy of driving over to Tiverton to look in the garage for trash can lids, there wasnât much I could do. But now I canât sleep and the thought / suggestion that I be upset by the âfactâ that I cannot drift off to dreamland seems like an alien thought to me nowâ just give-in (damn it!) and get up.
And Iâm giggling at something. I think about a neighborâs dog that visits on occasion and I think heâs a âwonderfully-goofyâ dog; you can tell just by the way he looks that heâs goofy. Makes me giggle a bit. Canât sleep, canât stop the rain, still got those skin blemishes that âif only I had health coverage I could get them looked atâ and suddenly I âseeâ the inter-connected / inter-relatedness of it ALL.
Some part of me is always on the lookout, always aware that at any moment âsomethingâ could, in fact probably will âhappenâ that will require a change of plan, a need to fix or correct, in order to be okay. As if I should proclaim: âItâs a good thing youâre on top of thisâ for otherwise Iâd beâ what?
Ahh, yes, my old rhetorical buddy pipes up from within. âSo, Willie, whatâs afraid? Oh, yeah, and while youâre at it, once again â exactly what is it afraid of?????â

âCanât sleep â must be something wrongâ --- Really?
âItâs raining out â you shouldnât have put the trash out because the trash collectors wonât empty rained-in containersâ --- Well, weâll see soon enough, and then we can deal with it in the moment.
âWell, what about those skin âthingsâ that just wonât go away â huh?â

The last one gave it all away; the âOld Faithfulâ of my current concerns, reliably there to be the cause of fear. Suddenly itâs as plain as the noonday hour on a cloudless day: âYou better be concerned; you better be afraid!â

My dear, sweet human, I seem to almost always forget that you simply donât know how to think about my truth without reverting to a fear-based scenario. After being âin the presenceâ of something that simply cannot be understood, comprehended, âgrokkedâ - and then left to yourself â all you can do is be afraid until, untilâ what?

My time with Dr John Mack and Roberta Colasanti during the days of PEER were all about holding a space for me, in my humanness, as I grappled with what Dr John lovingly referred to as âontological shockâ as if they both were my mid-wife as I birthed this new, emerging me. And even though Johnny Mack is now off-stage, his pediatric care of me seems to be continuing from that near-by dimension as well as through my continued contact with Bobbie. That, combined with 24+ years working with the metaphysics of A Course in Miracles, allowed me to chuckle, to giggle this early morning. I am currently, as I write this, fully encased in complete knowing that the âmore-than-humanâ me poses a very real threat to my human. It doesnât mean to, and in truth âitâ â my âmore-than-human-Selfâ means no harm to anything, in fact itâs appearing only because it has been invited.

Ever since July 5, 1996 when I sent âthatâ letter off to PEER I have been in ontological shock, and this morning, beginning around 3:33 AM it all fit into some form of higher sense.

Looks as if my favorite rhetorical will soon be bidding me a found adieu, its gift nearly unfathomable. Chuckle, giggle â call it what you will; in this moment it all makes sense, perfect sense.

Guess I better get ready to drive over to Lyndaâs place and drain the rain from the trash cansâ or not!

[...this just in; trash collectors have no issue with rain-in-bins...]

Striving vs. Allowing

Wed, 4 Mar 2009 13:26:00 GMT

It's been said in many ways - "Know Thy Self" -- "To thine own Self be true" -- "Heal thy Self" and so today let's remember this: "Striving plunges you into confusion as to who you really are and why you try so hard, for finding yourself is all that matters in the actuality of making."

Your 'Original-Self' is your natural way of being, and allowing this original signature to surface is putting Self First so you can be Self-Full and then begin to leave well enough alone!

Trance-Breaker

Tue, 3 Mar 2009 14:22:00 GMT

You are in a trance.
You are 'normal.'
You are not yourself; yet, you are always accompanied by your Self.

Today you can forget all you taught yourself - for one brief moment - and glimpse your Truth.

Laughter is required, for it is the only remedy that can override the blush of realizing you believed it was all true...

Year 12

Sun, 1 Mar 2009 22:49:00 GMT

Year 12
Sept 1979 - Sept 1980

Back from Panama and doing the scene, Dinner Key / Coconut Grove and our extended community. Hiding in the mangroves from Hurricane David, chilling-out in altered states, magic mushrooms and OOBE's keep me wondering what's next.
News that I've been accepted as a participant in the 1980 OSTAR means we need to get to England by mid-may and a lot has to happen. In all of our planning there will be no stopping the big-plan which will come and go in the fog off George's Banks early one foggy morning. Even though instantly forgotten for 11 years, it forms the trigger for what is to come...

Choosing Self

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 11:42:00 GMT

Sometimes it is as simple as asking: "What meaning shall I give to this?"
This of course implies that there is someone/something to ask such a question to. All of our work now is on accessing / awakening the real you, the 'more-than-human' aspect of self that is just waiting to be invited to share the ride...
So - when you are tempted to take that 'bad turn to the left' remember the following:
1) Refuse fearâs story of you (âSee what youâve done!â) â it comes to steal your identity. You are âcauseâ and can never be defined by the effects of story unfolding.

2) Call upon Self rather than believing the surrounding circumstances can define your truth by causing you to be, to feel, to behave, etc. accordingly, when in fact these âspecial effectsâ are only following subtle cues.

3) Stand apart from the circumstances - as they seem to appear - by realizing the surrounding effects can never define your truth; they can only show you what you believed (had been thinkingâ).

4) Call upon the âcausal-aspect-of-selfâ (mind) and choose not the circumstances as your defining truth.

Fear and Uncertainty

Fri, 27 Feb 2009 12:17:00 GMT

If, while in the presence of 'Real Thought' there is an absence of fear, then if there is fear present in the story of your life, you are in a state of uncertainty. There are ways to regain certainty which we'll look at tomorrow.
So again, where there is fear there is uncertainty â an absence of knowing where one can only âguessâ what to do.
This leads you to doubt your ability to choose due to the âevidenceâ of the story unfolding, and tends to keep you unwilling to believe in something else.

Remember: all doubt is self-doubt.

This world may claim that the future is uncertain only to keep you in doubt of who/what you truly are. Oh, yeah, and that goes for me, too.

Real Thought and the Absence of Fear

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 15:20:00 GMT

Real Thought and the Absence of Fear

Here it is, the defining characteristic of the 'Real Thought' - when you are in it, having one, engaging its realm, you are at home and fear is the stranger here. It is the absence of fear that allows us to remember what had just been that 'forbidden memory' and now is wrapping you in familiar Self-Recognition.
It's all there - or 'here' - my dear friend. Welcome to your memory of the real world, the home of real thought...

Real Thought Part 2

Wed, 25 Feb 2009 12:18:00 GMT

"Please, Sir; may I have some more?"

'Real Thought' vs. 'Bad Turn to the Left'

The game is a foot and you alone get to choose which it shall be today. Let's look at a characteristic of this so-called 'real-thought' to see if you really want one...

The Real Thought

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 11:42:00 GMT

So, if it is true that the (ultimate) outcome is already determined and 'our' human awareness of this pre-existing state is the source of all our anxiety and it is inevitable that we all arrive into this always, already preexisting state, what do we do today?
Once we identify the home of the fear (and you know it's not out there) we can strengthen our awareness of the truth by engaging in 'Real-Thought' and eventually (or, actually, immediately) remember who/what we are.

Inevitably Yours

Mon, 23 Feb 2009 12:54:00 GMT

Hang on now; it's 'time' to Re-Define 'self' and yes, that most certainly is 'self' with a small, lower-case s because the Other Self cannot be redefined simply because of its source...
I know YOU know this already, but perhaps (in your humanness) you forgot!!!!!!
So, today, re - define your self, that human thing that you are, and make room in your busy, hurry-worry world for your Self to be heard.
Do you have any idea who you are?????????

Year 11

Sun, 22 Feb 2009 19:31:00 GMT

Year 11
Sept 1978 - 1979

This is a long one; time is so full now and running as if we're on some ultimate scavenger hunt with the clock running, running...
Life's pace is completely late 1970's and we're running; running toward, running from, collecting all the elements for some alchemical soup never before concocted that would be years in the simmering. Only upon review does it begin to make much sense.
Is it madness that drives this train or is it predetermined with all its stops so carefully planned? Only time will tell and time is running at high speed. This year sets the stage for one of the biggest events I will ever be able to imagine...

Year 10

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 15:03:00 GMT

Year 10
Sept. 1977 - Sept. 1978

Leaving 'home' for a second time, this time on board 'DIDDIKAI' heading south. The journey is well underway but it feels new, as if it's happening now...
Me, M.B. and Bilbo (the 90# Olde-English Sheepdog) headed for Hell's Gate (Long Island Sound, that is... or is it?) and beyond. Reading the Fellowship of the Ring trilogy out loud to each other as we head down the coast.
The statement by Confucius was to proven over and over and over again: "No matter where one goes - there they are!"

Year 9

Sun, 8 Feb 2009 15:18:00 GMT

Year 9
Sept 6, 1976 - Sept 5, 1977

After my first summer of sailing Diddikai I'm hopelessly gone and it's only a matter of time now...
Work continues to focus on the marine field, I enter the first Newport-Bermuda single handed race, have a prophetic dream (actually, several) and slice-and-dice my only hand to temporarily be down to 'one finger and one thumb' while on a boat delivery to Trinidad.
Ah, youth; clearly wasted on the young!

Year 8

Sun, 1 Feb 2009 17:18:00 GMT

Year 8
Sept 6, 1975 - Sept 5, 1976

22 years old and speeding towards the brick wall of Destiny via the Fates Themselves. Unbeknownst to my human the play is scripted and the special effects are lining up. The cast of characters so carefully chosen that the hand of the master is evident at every turn. Except to me that is. I seem to be flip-flopping between profound certainty and total cluelessness. A seeming impossibility of juxtapositioning my fragments into some form of coherent understanding.
And there's still so much more to come...

Year 7

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 19:01:00 GMT

Year 7

Sept 6, 1974 - Sept 5, 1975

Going deeper into the world with the unexamined belief that I knew what and where I was going! The arrogant certainty of a 22 year old who had been touched by death and was (seemingly) out of control in a world going awry. No time to plan; barely time to live so fully that every moment was filled to the maximum with...
What I didn't know then was that the packages being ordered would most certainly get delivered...

The Perceptual Blind Spot

Thu, 22 Jan 2009 13:49:00 GMT

The 'lesson-plan' that follows you wherever you go can be seen as a smudge upon the lens of true perception, blurring the original screen upon which we display ourselves. The angst some of us feel so deeply is due to our inability to see what we know is there, and that is due to the 'Perceptual Blind Spot' that we agreed to clean away.
Don't get lost in the blind spot! I almost did yesterday and I saw far too many of us there in the throes of despair forgetting who we are and why we're here!
There is no stopping us now, for our eyes have seen. Our human feels lost; be compassionate today, you're worth it!

Year 6

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 18:13:00 GMT

Year 6; 1973-1974

Road trip's about to end and the next big trip begins! We find out how true it is that one can never really go home again, at least not without paying the fiddler. The insidious nature of my wound is gaining an upper hand and I don't have a clue, as if I'm following some inner unknown script. At times the silence of the invisible audience is downright palpable. And yes, the excursions into altered states continues, big time...

Year 5

Sun, 11 Jan 2009 14:48:00 GMT

Year 5
Sept 6, 1972 - Sept 5, 1973

Well, this is big one, a plunge deeper into the illusion except I don't know yet about the illusion. I'm going to leave home twice, take a turn or two into confusion and lose myself in the process. It's time to begin to protect the names of the innocent...

Note to comment:

Sat, 10 Jan 2009 15:53:00 GMT

As I continue to wrap-up my stuff and address dangling conversations, this note may find its way to its originator:

Beamish â

Thank you for your thoughts, and Iâm happy to respond to your comments. First off, Iâm not so good at this stuff so please bear with me. I found this site after receiving an email from a good friend only 2 days ago, on January 8, 09 around 5:05 PM EST.
I was surprised to find that someone had posted some of my YouTube material and invited others to watch it, and sent off a quick note to âatsâ but may have done it incorrectly since I meant it for the âatsguyâ as an acknowledgment, only to find it got posted as an âout-of-contextâ anonymous note. (Submitted on Jan 9, 09)

To my surprise, as I checked back to the site I saw your comment, and it set me to wondering why I was feeling what I was feeling as I read your thoughts.

So, here goes:
Timeline â The YouTube material was first done in January, 2008, just one year ago. My good friend shot it on a borrowed, poor quality older video camera and then had to find the means to get it on the site. There were three of us together at the time and it was a truly spontaneous (now I wonder if it was actually impulsive) decision to finally post some material I had kept rather hidden for many years.
So, Jan â08 was when I made available to a larger public audience what you so accurately refer to as a âlife changing experience.â

The Monkey See material was actually filmed in July 21, 2007 and made available when they launched on Jan 14, 08 (also one year ago this week). I took the opportunity to use the Monkey See site to chat about my work on intuitive insight and answer some general questions on what I have found over the years.
So when I read, in reference to my Monkey See postings: âHe seems to have forgotten (which is odd for someone promoting awakening of the self) his ET experiencesâ I felt a shot that Iâm pretty sure you were not delivering; but none the less, I wondered WHY I would have to have spoken about my ET material, then and there. It was not what that opportunity was about, and I assure you I most certainly had not then, nor have I now, forgotten the experiences.

As far as ââhis memory has also become selective on his own siteâ - well, itâs not my memory that was selective, simply my timing. I first started posting daily glimpses on my earliest web site in 1999. At that time I was still working with the late Dr John Mack and the clinical director at PEER, and believe me (if you so choose) I was in no way going to talk about or share my experiences as they were emerging and being integrated. Not only would it have been inappropriate, but I was in such a state during those years that it would only have exacerbated my at-times fragile psychological state. I donât expect you to understand, but I will tell you that when I first established my web presence, my services were not dependent upon my ET experiences.

When you brought up the financial aspect, or more directly: âAnd money has reared its ugly head tooââ I was taken aback. I understand you probably know very little about me and how I do, indeed, struggle to stay alive financially. In January of 1988 I left my last âreal jobâ as a production manager for a semi-custom yacht builder in New England as I was starting to come undone deep inside. At that time, I couldnât imagine what I was in store for. I began doing readings for people using the language of astrology which I had been studying personally since Feb, 1981. I found that I was able to access tremendous amounts of information about an individual after (I thought) examining their natal chart. The exchange proved beneficial for them and yes, I did charge a fee. At the time this is how I lived and paid bills.
By 1991 I had a strong client base and found that I did not need to use the tools I had developed, but I was not comfortable with the idea that I could access information directly, on my own. Over the next 10 years my intuitive skill took on a life of its own, and I continued to avail my self to others. In 2001 my life took an incredible turn that Iâm still building upon.

So, to your comment of: âYup, I agree everyoneâs got to make a living, but at the EXPENSE of turning your back on an apparently life changing experience? Is he embarrassed by his earlier proclamations?â I offer the explanation that I am not embarrassed, nor am I ashamed of my journey, and I now understand that all of my inter-dimensional experiences are part of my current package and what it is I have to offer. As far as whether or not my ET experiences are the most significant or life changing, I would say no, they are only part of my story.
I know several friends and clients that have had traumatic experiences (abuse, rape, death) and none of them include them in their current job or life description for they are far too personal. Only when it is safe and appropriate do they offer up their personal experiences. I never wish to become known as âthe guy who got taken by alien beings as a child and had some pretty terrible things done to himâ since that is not who I am; even though it happened, that alone does not make me who and what I am. The evening I chose to tell my parents about some of my experiences in case they wanted to meet Dr John and the research group was more than enough emotional torque for me until very recently.

Finally, your last comment is most intriguing as it is also on my mind. When you ponder: âIt makes me wonder how many people actually click on his bio, and then are surprised to find accounts of his abduction experienceâ you are not alone on that.
I wonder, should it matter? My clients agree to work with me after experiencing first hand my connection to their inner-truth. When I take my car in to be worked on, do I ask about the mechanic's psycho-spiritual experiences? No, I do not; for me it is enough that he was recommended and hopefully honest in his work. I take great pride in doing my work and the exchange is incredible for me since I am always left in the presence of my âInner-Otherâ who has been with me from the very beginning. While it is true that my Inner-Other cannot pay rent or buy gas or food, my clients are only too glad to help keep me alive! By the way, the site you pasted is out of date as I now request substantially more for my time, as my worth has increased. Still not enough to have health coverage or drive anything but a 13-year-old car that always needs something fixed, but perhaps somedayâ

What I have seen and experienced has touched me to my soul and allowed my human to access those memories. I struggle with keeping that touch in memory while trying to stay viable in this world. I am not so good at the âbeing humanâ part and many people have their own opinions about how and what it is that I am doing wrong. I know no other way, and am comforted only by the knowledge that as I awake I am in the presence of a love so incredible that itâs okay. My life may not be as I wish it to be, but it is the way it needs to be for me to remember. And I Will Rememberâ

Hope this settles your questions about my selective memory, but in truth you are correct. Memory is about as accurate as is perception, and mine is most certainly up for review. Perhaps weâll meet on the other side of perception, or maybe we already have and your comments were always meant to be found by me yesterday so I could write this today. Honestly, sometimes ârememberingâ can be a bitch!

Best to you,
As Always,
IAm

Your (Perfect) Lesson Plan

Tue, 6 Jan 2009 17:33:00 GMT

There is, right now, an already, preexisting lesson plan that will meet and interface with you no matter where you seem to be. The outcome, the goal of this lesson plan, is to return you to mindfulness where you can access true-informed-choice and perhaps commit to remembering your Original State.
Implementing that plan is our (human) task as choosing it over the distractions of this world can be quite a challenge until we're ready to follow.
If you're reading this, you're ready...

Said and done...

Mon, 5 Jan 2009 16:50:00 GMT

Well, looks like it got sorted-out and my postings are now available to be shared.

My commitment to posting one year every Sunday has brought with it a lot of amazing pieces out of my past as well as some resistance to releasing the old. I don't expect my limited memories to mean much to you but by engaging my inner companion and using selective-recall I have indeed begun to bring to the surface and wring-out remnants no longer needed as well as being able to visit again some remarkable episodes.

All memory is highly selective as is perception, but by agreeing and allowing my Inner-Other to select with me it's like watching the big movie run at the moment of death!

Ever since I saw the movie Jacob's Ladder I feared that I actually died on that Friday, September 6, 1968 and that all this other 'stuff' - this phenomenal experience I've been wading through was all about the final release. On several occasions I told Dr John that I worried I was already dead and just afraid to let go.

Turns out that I've been 'hanging-on' for a lot longer than 40 years, but now I'm letting go. I promise to share, as honestly as possible, what happens next.

"In the blood of Eden, lie a woman and a man... It was all for the union; Oh, the union of the woman, the woman and the man..."

"... Son, He said, grab your things; I've come to take you HOME!"

Two as One

Mon, 5 Jan 2009 16:47:00 GMT

Your Original Self is always available for comment, but It speaks a slightly different language. Your human self needs to be reminded to ask, and much more importantly, to listen...

Year 4

Mon, 5 Jan 2009 16:42:00 GMT

Sept 6, 1971 - Sept 5, 1972
Leaving high school behind, headed for Boston, a much bigger world awaits...

Patience, please...

Mon, 5 Jan 2009 11:26:00 GMT

I'm not sure why, but my last two posts are somewhere, simply not on this page. I'm waiting for a response about how to get back on-line with libsyn and meanwhile I'm reminded about how a breakdown in communication can be frustrating, at best.

And still, the 'inner-connect' is there, or actually here waiting to be chosen.

There is a perfect parallel between my wanting to post and it simply not going through with my podcast yesterday about the Two as One. The Original state is perfectly intact while the human state is floundering at best. Whatever the reason, the experience remains the same: One is real in its continuous presence while the other is imagined and subject to conditions.

Are you ready to stare into your truth for a longer period today and invite Its Presence to shine on this world? Prepare yourself for the shock of only being able to see what is real here, for your truth will look right past the shadowy figures that used to hold your attention. Be gentle and use the filter of laughter as any attempt at serious analysis will only try to catch you in its net, its web of deception.

If you are keen to it, you will notice our true brothers and sisters doing the same thing today - looking through the illusion to the thought that allowed this movie to linger for so long only to be seen for what it is: a thought gone awry and now soon to be released as we make our way back to our entry point. What's working for me is to keep talking to my Truth as the remnants of past thoughts and beliefs get blown away.

Your Truth is closer than you realize and your human has some serious concerns. Be nice, be kind, and be gentle. Today look through the thought that you allowed to hold your attention and invite the touch of The Entity You Are In Truth.

"I will be still an instant, and go Home..."

Two as One

Sun, 4 Jan 2009 22:21:00 GMT

Your Original Self is always available for comment, but It speaks a slightly different language. Your human self needs to be reminded to ask, and much more importantly, to listen...

Year 4

Sun, 4 Jan 2009 21:55:00 GMT

Sept 6, 1971 - Sept 5, 1972
Leaving high school behind, headed for Boston, a much bigger world awaits...

Inheritance Found

Mon, 29 Dec 2008 10:41:00 GMT

Birth is but the moment you forget your self into illusion â death is but returnâ
(Sept 5 2003)

I speak now to the other you, the more-than-human that you are as well. By now you know, or, more appropriately, ârememberâ that indeed you are both, this human that you are appearing as and that âotherâ one also, the pre-existing already in-formed entity that knows more about your truth than your human does.

This is your inheritance â use it fully.
This is your inheritance â use it wisely.

There is no need to fear that you will use it up, for it is unending in that it is your source of human participation. More accurately, it is the connection to your divine, eternal truth, and it is yours, all yours.

What you do with it is up to you and most certainly this is the grandest part of the gift. It will never be taken away from you although there are certain conditions under which you will not be able to access it, and the temporary absence of it will create within you an awareness that something is wrong (or not as it could be).

In these situations it might be more appropriate to simply realize that you are not in the proper relationship or alignment to your truth and therefore immediately begin to uncover that pre-existing state you allowed to be obscured by your recent choices in the world of collective human experience.

This understanding will save you wear and tear once your truth has activated its (silent) call and your human has felt its touch.

It is inevitable that your truth will sound its call and the only real variable once this has occurred is the amount of time you â your human â will take in releasing the chosen focal points of human experience that you selected to delve into.

Because it is inevitable it should now be clear that there are no âwrongâ experiences to choose from, only variants on the human scale of phenomenon.

The torque you will feel comes from when you reach your predetermined limit of depth in the human experience, just as the free-diving swimmer must eventually begin their return to the surface or drown. The difference here, of course, is that the entity that you are in truth cannot cease to exist for that is only a possibility within your human experience.

And so now we can begin to see the mysterious wonder of the thought, the concept, of life and death and begin to understand its necessity for the concept of time. As one who remembered fully put it, âyou are not what you pretend to beâ and yet you are able to pretend, to believe, anything â even the unbelievable! That is the power you possess, to breathe into any thought and in doing so, make it so! Yet all the while, that is not what you areâ

Year 3

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 20:11:00 GMT

Three years into the life after the tree of pain is now establishing itself as the players begin to assemble and I meet Fate head-on.

Original You

Tue, 23 Dec 2008 14:23:00 GMT

Original Memory (OM) of the Original Relationship (OR) of The Entity That I Am (TETIA) - the Entity that You Are, in Truth, The Eternal Truth (ET)... are all word games we play to tickle the real you to begin to show It-Self.
Let's get on with what it is we agreed to do this time around. Let's agree to remember that previous, already existing I Am Mind.

What changes?

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 11:30:00 GMT

In this world of wonder, what should we expect to change, or much more appropriately how will we see/experience the change? It all depends on which mind we engage to see. Indeed, it is the season to ask: "Do you see what I see...?"

Year 2

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 15:02:00 GMT

It's a bit graphic at times, having these memories explode to the surface, but in the mix there's another story. It might not make much sense yet, but in the details are the pieces that will reconstruct the human man that tried so hard to hide the light and the gifts bestowed upon him...

1st Year

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 18:08:00 GMT

Resistance is high, but futile.
Here's my first entry after being given my assignment to review the past 40 years in an effort to recontextualize my journey to this point.
Following my Inner Guidance, IAm.

40 Years in 40 Weeks

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 14:30:00 GMT

40 Years in 40 Weeks

On Sunday, Dec 7, 2008 it was suggested and generally agreed upon that it was now time to wrap-up my 40-year journey by inviting the recall of each yearâs highlights as the reconstruction of my Humpty-Dumpty-Post-Fall avails itself for its finishing touches.

Adam/Lynda piped-in that by using the next 40 weeks to juxtaposition the pieces into a finished portrait I might finally see all the players involved in this production in their proper perspective. Neal Erickson was present in his role as both the witness and technical, next-step coach and I began to do the math: 40 weeks from Sunday, December 7, 2008 just happens to be Sunday, September 6, 2009 â the end of 40 years since my electrocution (and later referred to as my 'execution') and my travels since falling from that tree of pain and knowledge.

Needless to say, this past week has been fraught with flashbacks and bleed-throughs, forced memories and contacts with my past. I had received a copy of my medical records several years ago (mailed in Sept, 1998 â 30 years onâ) which I retrieved last night from storage. Complete with date and time of admittance (9/6/68 @ 3:53PM via Barrington Ambulance) and discharge (10/25/68 @ 11:00 AM) as well as photographs of the damage done, my mind has been rushing to fill in the blanksâ

So, for the next 40 weeks I intend to re-cap each year through the lens of my current filter as well as inviting â to the best of my ability â the appropriate age set. I may eventually do it in video format, but without some more help from my friends on how to film and edit, that will have to wait. For now, Iâm trusting my guide/coach Adam and his intentions as I begin to reconstruct my Self from the ashes of the past.

I offer you a seat on the bus in the hope that my journey may shed some light on our collective journey â that of returning to full memory and awareness of who we are in Truth and why weâre here after all. Adam promises it will be worth the effortâ

ET to Adam: My next step...

Mon, 8 Dec 2008 18:16:00 GMT

This is my first video podcast post using iMovie on my new MacBook addressing several questions I've received since posting my Alien Encounter episode on YouTube that came out of my work with the late Dr John Mack.
Here I'm responding to whether or not my encounter experiences ended or were they replaced by yet another level of experience...

That Original Relationship

Mon, 10 Nov 2008 02:43:00 GMT

Ahhh, yes - that Original Relationship, the one we so easily overlook! Your worth and your value come exclusively from your relationship with your Original Source and the memory of that O.S. held deep within. Again; your worth and your value come from your relationship with Source and that memory is held safely within by your Inner-Other.
Within that memory is a glimpse of the Entity you are in Truth...

New Beginnings...

Sat, 8 Nov 2008 16:06:00 GMT

Not sure this will work, but I'm playing with MacBook and wanting to use Garageband to post these messages now.
Ideally I'd like to post them as videos but one step at a time, so let's see if this works first...

Message from the river bank

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 13:07:00 GMT

On the 'other side' of the stream of collective human consciousness there is a river bank of another realm that's beyond the human dimension. Information is available from those gathered there. Today I looked into the 'eyes' of one who waits upon my call and was assured, once again, that I need not fear...

A Gathering of 'Others'

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 12:24:00 GMT

On the other side of the stream of consciousness of the mind held in common there is a river bank where They are Gathering.

Ample & Equal Opportunity

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 12:42:00 GMT

Okay - so what's the one thing all the headline news has in common? It's all a running commentary on what's happening deep within the 'mind-held-in-common' and as such should be witnessed through the Presence of Grace.

Adam quotes Grace as proclaiming: "I am Grace; I allow all to pass without comment..."

Our role is to be present in the resurfacing of truth and choose it - Truth - instead of the delay tactics of blame and avoidance. Honestly, we don't need any more proof about how screwed-up the human mind-held-in-common can spin and avoid the inevitable. And it is inevitable, you know.

Today, let's stop avoiding the moment we have arrived for. Today, let's watch the battle-of-symptoms and not be caught in its web of illusion. Today, let one of us see the true choice and call it out from within.

Sing it loud, sing it clear. The light of truth is oh-so-near!

Opportunity: Change

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 13:55:00 GMT

Once we voice our willingness to 'see this differently' what might we expect?
One version would be the Human Consciousness' inspired take on how it can be ingeniously re-configured. This will be a variation on the original theme that controls the human consciousness stream.
There is, within you, another way of seeing. It's Source is from beyond the realm of the stream of human consciousness and its insights and inspirations. Somewhere within you, within your mind, there is Another You that awaits recognition and activation. Just knowing that 'this other' exists and waits to be seen/heard/chosen can produce extreme conflict within your true decision-making capability. The pressure is on!
This version will offer an entirely different view of what's going on and as we strengthen this 'other' view we anchor an Other-Than-Human reference point from which we can build a vision promised in the beginning...

What's that you say?

Wed, 8 Oct 2008 17:05:00 GMT

If it's true that it doesn't have to be this way, then what must we do differently?
Well, how about starting with accepting that what's appearing now is only trying to show us what we've been focusing upon and therefore allowing! This morning I overheard 'them' saying... "They don't realize that it doesn't have to be like this"... and I knew they were correct. So I began wondering what it is we're not requesting and why we might be hesitant to ask for what we want.

note: I originally posted this as a podcast but the audio went missing... sorry for the confusion for those who tried to listen... to... nothing! (Hope that's not a commentary on my content!!)

The Forbidden Memory

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 12:00:00 GMT

If there were a 'forbidden memory' who or what would have decided it should be so?
Is a 'forbidden memory' like the idea of a 'forbidden fruit' and if so, what is at stake if we invite it?
There is a memory that exists which has the power to restore us to our fullness and in its presence there really is no choice at all. That's right, choice becomes an illusion because there is no choice when in the presence of your original relationship.
That's where we journey to now, the place of the forbidden memory which has been cloaked in myth as ancient as history itself. The memory is here, now. You have no need to be afraid of its content. Fear is the stranger here.

Waiting for Revealation?

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 13:09:00 GMT

Maybe you should not listen to this one - because if it makes any sense at all then you're a lot closer to choosing that which you agreed to look away from, and that thing, that thought, that memory is the antithesis of this world gone awry.
On the other hand (yes, one of my favorite expressions) maybe today you can choose your original relationship and retain its memory for longer that you have before. Ah, hell, maybe one of us won't ever forget again... ahhhh, yes, The Awakened One!
You go first...

Hello, Old Friend...

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 11:59:00 GMT

This morning EnderDogHimself arrived to greet and comfort me. "Hello, Old Friend" I heard in surround sound. "Sure is nice to see you once again."

By now I know enough to understand that more release is coming for me.

Today I will get the opportunity to release an old point of interest that still captures my attention and draws upon my awareness. My friend will stay by my side as I choose to let go of the attraction and reclaim a piece of my Self.

Will this be the missing piece, the one that tips the balance in favor for my real, true, original relationship which holds my missing peace (of mind) and allows me to remember just who I am in truth?

We'll see... it's only a matter of time now...

That which is rightfully mine!

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 11:25:00 GMT

Is it possible that it is true that: "That which is rightfully yours can never be held or kept away from you against your will!" be accurate? Because if it is, then all you (or I) need to do is: 1) access the safe place in Mind where that which is rightfully ours awaits, and 2) have it be our will to allow it to be.
#2 is tricky because the true power of our original-will can change everything since that power is what operates this world and currently keeps us from remembering, as if we would be afraid to see that it is us that did all this!
Don't be afraid to call upon that which is yours in Truth today. It's waiting to be chosen as what you really want! It can wait. It will wait. On you.

Is It Safe?

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 11:46:00 GMT

One question; 3 words: "Is It Safe?"

This agreement to 'be human' produces its own set of challenges to be addressed and adjusted/corrected or simply understood. When most of us 'feel safe' there is, in our interactions and expressions, a certain signature of familiarity that can produce (or actually, allow) an awareness that brings with it the gift we all carry into this world.
As that gift comes closer to being displayed and seen, the fear in this world becomes agitated and fierce. The closer the gift comes to our human aspect the greater the attempts at distraction become. No big deal; to be expected. In truth, these attempts to get and hold our attention change nothing.
Waiting for it to be safe in the world may not be wise now. Knowing you are safe within your truth is preferred.

Where fear resides

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 10:46:00 GMT

"What's afraid, and exactly of what is it afraid?" may seem to be a goofy string of words, but look again. The one you are in truth knows not of fear. The one you are in this world knows all about fear. There it is! Do you want to continue to disarm the fears that appear in your world by assigning causal blame and fighting for what is right, or do you want to see the origin of all fear in your world and do what you intended to do when you submerged your Self into your 'human-suit' as if all that you are in truth could fit in such an alien vessel?
The world 'out there' is working overtime to distract YOU from Remembering...
But I know who you are. And I say to you - reclaim that which is rightfully yours!

Recapitulating your Truth

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 11:38:00 GMT

If it is true that nothing that is rightfully yours can be kept from you unless you agree, then perhaps it is time to remember what it is that is rightfully yours, in truth...

What's going on?

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 14:01:00 GMT

Remember the lyrics that proclaimed: "There's something happening here; what it is, ain't exactly clear..." - well, here we go again!
But this time we can choose to not engage the all-too-human need to assign blame as if assigning blame will change anything. It won't, and we, the ones reading this, are here to choose change. We've got to find the 'Inner/Other's' take on this or we are condemned to the dualistic option of 'us vs. them' and by now we know that gets us nothing!

Change's Moment

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 12:02:00 GMT

Have you ever had the experience of one sentence changing the entire story? That 'moment-of-change' may be the most powerful moment our human is capable of. In that moment everything is reconfigured, re-contextualized in such a way where 'we' suddenly are okay. Suddenly, 'It's okay' as we are now able to move-on and allow the previous grip upon our attention to dissipate. This is not an act-of-will but rather completion due to truth taking its proper place...

Forget-Me-Not

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 13:17:00 GMT

Is there a difference between real thoughts and mental musings or mental imaging run amok? By noticing recurring themes and choosing to look again at their implication, we discover that they all have one thing in common - in order to 'engage' and become one with the chosen theme, all we have to do is... (forget).

One step forward...

Tue, 9 Sep 2008 11:40:00 GMT

Let's look at a couple of universal expressions that we use to describe our process of returning once again to the awareness we have never really lost...

The Next Step

Mon, 8 Sep 2008 11:41:00 GMT

'Welcome back my friend to the show that never ends' is an apt introduction to where we find our 'human-experiencer' on stage in the production of this shared group play waiting for YOU to take your lead.

Ah, yes, but which 'you' are we all waiting for to take the lead? There is you, the human projected, materialized, manifested 'experiencer' of your life, and of course there is YOU - the One you are in Truth that has chosen to participate in this shared, group play on the stage of life in this dimension at this time.

My take is clear: your human-experiencer is not the one we await, but it is the one you must use to invite your 'Other' - your Inner-Other - that more original self that awaits within to share with and through you the gift that has the power to change how and what you see.

There is to be a blending of sorts now as those of us who agreed to participate in this project of change gladly take their proper place in allowing the One that sent us here to lead us in the way appointed. Inner guidance is now listened to and the fog begins to lift as we follow the inner lead and approach the place of joining.

If indeed it is true that 'all things made are made from your inner realm' (thank you Adam) then connection with and aligning to this inner realm of awareness surely will produce a change. A change of authorship is what we are speaking of and seeking. To be an agent of change requires the activation of the inner-other and allowing that 'other' story to emerge.

The 'blending' of the two, the inner one that sent you here and the projected, materialized manifested human one on the stage of life that seems to be interacting with the current cast of billions, is done by invitation only. You - the human component - must invite and cultivate your unique relationship with your Inner-Other that you are also, and awaken the knowing mind connection that we so long for again. This 'knowing mind connection' is the source of all your fleeting thoughts that proclaim that 'it doesn't have to be like this' or 'there's another way to be' and now we get to exercise that option.

If the inner realm sources the outer realm of human experience then you are already being shown this in your life. For me that experience has taken on the form of living in close proximity to someone who has an undeniable link to her inner guidance system that now invites her to join together as 'the two become as one' and through that connection offer the gifts they alone may produce. (For more insight into this persons journey visit www.lyndafriedman.com and click on the archive link and read from the earliest entry forward.)

By witnessing first hand her life of balancing and blending the two realms she lives so deeply in has entrained me to my own journey, that of blending the two that I am, the One I Am in Truth, who sent me here, with the one I am in this world. All that was lacking was that I choose, consciously, the invite my Inner/Other to take more and more of the lead.

My human self still tries to convince me that what I truly want is to sail away on that fantasy Alibi 47 to a tropical paradise with the perfect lover that fulfills and completes me. But, since my human self knows not what I Am in Truth, it can only offer fantasy after fantasy in an effort to hold my attention. Over time I have come to realize that, as my human one, I too know not who/what I Am, and therefore realize that the happiness I seek is better left to be ordered-up by the one who knows the Truth of Who/What I Am.

Finally, the cast of characters (me and my Self) are in agreement, and now the joruney back to the place where I entered into this 'wrap-around-surround-sound-totally-interactive-theater-of-mind' can get under way! And yes, indeed, what a long, strange trip it's been...

40 years on...

Mon, 8 Sep 2008 11:26:00 GMT

Waiting for the settlement, for the pieces to find their counterparts and take their proper place in the corrected picture that offers the alignment necessary for remembering one's Original Intention can take time. After all, time is a human quality necessitated by the laws of perception. So when it's time for 'the next step' clarity emerges and understanding sets the stage...

Changing in the Now

Thu, 3 Apr 2008 13:36:00 GMT

Changes are so often thought of as occurring in the past or future, but what about it existing in the now? Right now you are present to witness your own process of completion...

Who can't handle the truth?

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 13:59:00 GMT

That classic movie moment when we are told: "You can't handle the truth" brings up a great point. It is indeed true that 'you' cannot handle the Truth, but Y.O.U. (Your Other/Inner Understanding) not only can, but It is that Truth. Exercising and strengthening that relationship will allow you to more and more quickly know just what that Truth is, where It is, and that makes all the difference in the world...

The Real E.T.

Mon, 24 Mar 2008 12:58:00 GMT

In the world of smoke and mirrors 'E.T.' might point to the concept of Extra-Terrestrial as being from outside the earth or its atmosphere, perhaps an intelligent being from outer space... But what if ET was always meant to signify Eternal Truth and it's waiting to be found?

Ender Dog Departs

Sat, 8 Mar 2008 14:24:00 GMT

Ender Dog No More :(

     On Thursday, March 6, 2008 at approximately 3:33 PM Ender-Dog-Himself was ânudgedâ off-stage while nestled in my arm. His absence is unfathomable, unknowable and immeasurable and so it is fitting that the only thing that can fill this void is The Presence; the love we shared and his patience with me. What he did for me will never be forgotten.
     You cannot imagine just how much of my daily life was based around him; singing to him, talking with him, waiting for him, complaining to him, apologizing to him, loving him. For the last month or so every time I pronounced: âI love you ED" (ED was short for Ender Dog) I got an instant message from within that told me the exact same thing. âI love you Will" was received loud and clear and from an Inner Presence that stopped me in my tracks every time.
     I could go on, and on, and I will on my inner net, but today I wish to say how grateful I Am for the Love I experienced and witnessed through this Great Dane/Lab mix of 138.9 pounds of pure dog. To all who knew Ender-Dog-Himself I invite you to feel his Love one more time and thank him for being such a grand, mighty companion to one so in need as me.
     The world is a better place for having been graced by this celestial beingâ

One way only.

Wed, 6 Feb 2008 12:11:00 GMT

One Way In; One Way Out

There is Good News in all of this, because there is good news within. For now, let us return to the idea of the mega-multiplex movie cinema and notice how it is designed. No one can leave. It is a closed system. All exits only lead to another theater-of-mind. The only way out is within. The only way out is to remember what the agreement was upon entering.

The operational system of this dimension is flawless; itâs the current program that is running that is in need of review. But use caution â the closer one gets to it, with all its special interactive effects, the greater the pull of attraction, and if one is not careful they will get sucked-into the screen itself and become part of the story unfolding. Deeper and deeper into the fabric of the story upon a screen now no longer two dimensional, not even three dimensional, but somehow more, going deeper and deeper into a program truly not to your liking â not in accordance with your Original Being and certainly not very friendly to your Original Self.

I think itâs time we STOP! (Hey â whatâs that sound; everybody look at whatâs going downâ)

STOP having an opinion, for just a moment. STOP believing all the evidence, just for a moment. Be Still, for just an instant, and REMEMBER!!!! It does not have to be like this!!! None of this is who you are in Truth and it is all a trick of mind control that has not the power to determine who or what you are. The âprogrammersâ produced what they were told to â a closed system that would spin any concept into yet another version of the same story: come and see what it is like to be taught who and what you are. All you have to do is agree to forget - just for one nanosecond - who and what you are. {[( completely )]}

But you see, what you are, in Truth, can never be forgotten COMPLETELY because who/what you are was not determined by you â the one in the multiplex of stories playing out a role assigned to you by a director you donât even know. What about the concept of a ghost town or evidence of a tribal group disappearing without a trace!

Even the blind can read the writing appearing on the wall now â the operating program, the matrix, is going for total control, and it thinks it can achieve what In Truth can never happen. As long as you keep your focus on âout-thereâ and form an opinion you will be absorbed into the master program operating this dimension and spun into a version it deems appropriate to keep itself running. There is no way out as long as you interact with the images upon the screen as if they are defining who and what you are. Even when the original programmers send representatives to re-enter the massive multiplex of movie-theaters-of-mind, security finds them quickly and spins them like a ladybug caught in the web of a spider only to make monuments of religion to them and keep the masses believing. No way out baby! Got to go withinâ

It only takes One to find the Original Entry Point of consciousness and âflip-the-switchâ during which all will be able to âseeâ just what is going on. When the light goes on the Truth is seen and in that instant there is only that which is true. The âthought-gone-awryâ â the âtiny-mad-ideaâ so carefully concealed behind the Original Fear - The Forbidden Memory - Itself â will be able to be seen for what it is, and in the moment of Light the Truth will be available to be seen once again. As you know by now, the original gift of the correction of the Original Error can not be seen through the lens of judgment. Your Inner-Other is preparing you for this moment. Trust me, YOU donât want to miss this opportunity, for staying in a place you donât belong is hell, and thatâs a factâ

Remember to Ask

Mon, 3 Dec 2007 14:18:00 GMT

Today will arrive just as it was ordered, as the parade of your previously held thoughts filtered through your beliefs. As always, there is another way to see, another interpretation. Today ask your I/O how It would have you see today's packages. Be sure to give a listen...

Choosing Guides / Choosing Sides

Sat, 1 Dec 2007 13:21:00 GMT

Itâs time to lock on to the real question. Are you more than human or not? Has your âhumanâ convinced you that what you see, and more importantly, what others see, is who you are, or even yet, all you are? Are you still believing that you, the physical, human vessel, are made in the image of your creator or are you still wrestling with the evolutionary story that continues to unfold? Are you content to stay in the life you have been in and let it determine your story, or could there be yet another story to tell?

It is the responsibility of every creation myth to establish the beginning. It must allude to The Beginning as well as place us, humanity, firmly in our roots. Should some information come along that changes the meaning of the established origins of our introduction into the story, that information and its implied interpretation risks an inquisition few can withstand. Well, itâs time for a revision, a revealing of sorts, an un-veiling of what was always there just waiting to be seen.

An example: Imagine a database of information that appears upon the scene so you can use it to locate places on a map. Clicking on this Map re-Questing information and directions you become use to it and begin to rely upon it as the way to get from here to there. Over time a new, improved database comes along but you donât use it â as long as the one you are using â continues to work for you. But the new construction site where you live is not to be found in the older version and trying to get directions becomes fraught with angst. Eventually you only go to the new, improved database as you giggle (or google) at its effectiveness. The revised meets the needs.

When you arrived here you were told a story that others before you were told about the beginning. You were tested to be sure that you understood the implied and explicit meaning and all the consequences that might follow such a story and its meaning. Eventually, without notice, it became truth, operating on its own as a filter to incoming information and blocking access to competing sources of meaning. And so there we have it â itâs the meaning we give that holds the key. In fact it is that very meaning we seek out to find day in and day out. And find it we do!

So, just as the library has assistance in locating material from its collective shelves, or the University has an army of research assistants to seek out its needed information, so too you have an inner network on line 24/7 whose sole function it is to find what it is you are looking for. Are you willing to examine your inner information-gathering systems? And even if youâre willing, are you able to? Will it let you call it into question? Because the meaning of your life is an interpretation and the interpreter is more powerful than you might imagine. Has your inner interpreter become more powerful than you? Does the research assistant author the story? Are you allowing the Inner Interpreter to determine your story? (Did I just hear: âAye, Aye Captain?)

YOU determine what is true for you. You agree to accept as gospel the meaning of any situation presented right before your eyes, and it is that meaning that you are re-producing every moment in your life. Control the meaning and you control the moment. Just ask the media moguls what they think. Nah, donât bother, just remember â you can choose what it shall mean. Thatâs right - shall - future tense baby! If you do not call into question your own inner interpretive mechanism that keeps the story consistent with the already chosen meaning then no change can ever occur. But right now, today, you have access to another meaning, another interpreter just waiting to be heard. You may need to suspend judgment momentarily and give your self permission to be surprised, but give it a try.

It may well turn out that You are not who you thought you were! Ahhh, pronouns, such a tool for such a fool as I!

Monkey See

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 13:46:00 GMT

I have begun posting videos on MonkeySee.com: check it out!

Closed System

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 17:04:00 GMT

Warning: Allowing effects to take on causal attributes can be hazardous to your mental state. Once you allow an effect to become the cause of your behavior or your feelings you have entered a closed system and there may then be no way out!

Choosing Guides

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 12:49:00 GMT

Not all advisors are the same so choose with caution. It will always come back to whether or not there's a place to get (back) to. The greatest show on earth wants you to stay put, your I/O wants your attention...

The Un-Secret Secret Plan.

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 15:14:00 GMT

Time to rally, but to what? Get ready to admit that you don't (really) have a choice because you've already made your choice. So, it must be time to follow in the way appointed...

Call waiting.

Sat, 17 Nov 2007 12:32:00 GMT

Maintaining the balance is a constant dance until you establish with complete certainty that there is indeed a âplaceâ to get to. Awareness of your other dimensions of consciousness and your âOtherâ Original Beingness doesnât fit in all that well with the current operating system and its program that seems to demand such allegiance. And yet, you, being human, need not suffer just because you invite the other, more-than-human aspects of your awareness into your earthly experience. However, inviting your Original Beingness is a whole different story.

Awakening the memory of your Original Self can be spoken of and alluded to, but as far as what the experience is, well, â

There is a call that is being heard by many of us even in the chaos â perhaps especially because of the chaos. It is tempting to accept that the answer to this call is in the mix that is to be found around you, but the answer cannot be seen with eyes entrained upon the trance figures gracing the screen of life. It takes another set of eyes, so to speak, to see what the call is showing. In other words, there simply must be another way to see.

It may seem obvious that many/most on stage right now simply will not engage this âother way of seeingâ but I suspect that it is more that they simply do not know (or remember) and hence simply cannot. They would if they could, but they canât so they donât. And thatâs because this âother way of seeingâ is not easily seen through eyes entrained upon a screen that, for so long, has not only produced the answer but has also claimed to be the reason for everything appearing. Weâve spoken before about the consequences of allowing an effect to become a cause â it produces a closed system. As long as the trance holds, thereâs no way out baby!

Perhaps that is what is being played out in the political arena right now, some part of American Humanity is begging for a way out of a system gone awry so badly that they are begging for a correction. Others are befuddled at the very suggestion that any thing is wrong. The outside portrays (betrays?) the inside. Fear strikes at the prospect of yet another missed opportunity to awaken to our ways and return to the path. Outside reflects inside. Futility keeps many from even allowing themselves to show they care, but they do. The arrival of the voice that empowers the slumber-ridden ones to begin to see once again what could be is waiting for its moment. Once again, outside mirrors inside.

Is there a voice for you to hear? Is there a voice from within you that is waiting for its moment to be heard? Are you more than what your current human life seems to be availing to you? Does some part of you plead that it doesnât have to be this way? Is there a place, a way of being and therefore seeing, that is calling out to you to be found? There is no other reason you would be reading this page right now if it were not so. As an agent of change, let it begin with you. Ask your Inner Other to show itself today and pat attention. Thereâs a change coming from within, and so it isâ

'Because I'm still in love with you...'

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 12:52:00 GMT

Apparently fatigue along the way is quite common and itâs best to rest oneâs weary mind in a safe place. When the âland-scapeâ turns against you on your journey out of madness donât try to do more than youâre capable of in that moment. Remembering that you are never alone â regardless of the surrounding population present or absent â finding yourself in times of trouble is the best of times to listen to that âotherâ voice.

The voice is really only a signature of the inner presence and it is the presence, the awareness of your other, that has the power you may believe you lack as you face the sentinels in your landscape placed there to keep you put. You see, you must have opened the envelope containing the note with the three questions that almost all fellow sojourners have spoken of. Their form varied to best fit the circumstances of the individualâs life but they break down pretty much as follows:

1) Is there a place to get to?
2) Are you there?
3) Are you ready?

And so it began. There have been steps along the way where you have had to cultivate trust in this inner, invisible guide that may at times seem to go silent or even disappear completely, but eventually you realize that all that really happened was you leaving the presence to enter another shop in the mall of life. (That was mall, not maulâ) Eventually you come to understand that this voice, this inner presence, is showing you another way to see yourself and seems to know you as a different entity than you believe your self to be.

Now you can stay in that shopping mall of consciousness, that monster Cineplex, for as long as you want, but eventually you will remember that there is indeed a place to get to and that where you are right now is not it. And with infinite patience your inner guidance mechanism picks right up on cue and accompanies you through the circumstances surrounding you in this world of wonder where the âwrap-around, surround-sound totally interactive theater-of-mindâ is presenting its latest headliners in the game show so affectionately known as The Truth of Consequences.

My guide uses music to get me to listen. Early on it was Dionne Warwick singing âtake it easy on your selfââ then Peter Gabrielâs back-up team chanting ââdonât give upâ and even last night on the Showtime special on the boob-tube where Neil Young was telling me that it was okay, that my Inner/Other was ââstill in love with meâ and wanted only to see me dance again. I know, crazy stuff, but as real as real can be for me.

Are you ready?

Dear Awakened One...

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 02:36:00 GMT

I am, by nature, a reductionist. Always looking for that least common denominator. Awake or dreaming it is the same. Canât seem to help myself.

Past lives? Sure, Iâve had my share, but so what? Iâm here now arenât I? I do believe I am.

And thatâs the bottom line you know. Believing. Here we can even believe in the unbelievable and low and behold! Like magic.

Nothing wrong with magic. No matter how grand it is though, it canât replace your truth. Now thatâs a fact.

Arenât you hungry for your truth? Come on now, tell the truth. I mean, what else is there?

It only takes one of us to remember that truth and the entire stage lights up. Now thatâs a show to behold. I remember the last time I was here and one remembered. Sweet Jesus, I remember. Heaven touched the earth, and those there that day who glimpsed what happened, well, they were never the same again. Oh no, they were awakened. I remember. And it changed everything.

Are you ready? It only takes one. And thereâs no reason in the world that one cannot be you.

Oh my dear Awakened One, tell me what you see. Touch my heart, touch my soul and let me know. Let me know that itâs all right. Please tell me what I long to hear. After all, you promised to come back and find me. Iâm ready.

Here, there and everywhere.

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 14:37:00 GMT

Musings of madnessâ
Ah, yes â the âworking-outâ of my human life, that backlog of previously ordered packages from when I had no idea what I was thinking, never mind that all those thoughts would coagulate into packages that when delivered would be rather disagreeable. So what is it I am to trust? That I did not then know what was in my best interest? Canât just keep moving in hopes that the packages wonât get delivered. Got to receive these âgiftsâ and learn to see that the past is still trying to control my life. Like a bad habit now offering advice and guidance itâs time to find the way out of what was and reclaim what is to be!

Perhaps itâs the truth of consequences that is keeping a grip so tight upon my thinking mind that seems to make me unable to see differently. For if the law of selective perception is true, then canât I see different packages or is it that I must see the current packages differently? Is that just a cop-out that all criminals feel as they hear the sentence being delivered? That final stroll down âdead-man-walkingâ row as the consequences dance upon the skin being strapped into the chair soon to shed the final light of understandingâ

Is it death I fear? Death of what? Is the change of mind, of perception, that I seek, so threatening that death itself is a preferred option? Should I not just plead my case and beg to be re-instated into the safety of the mind-held-in-commonâs dream of projective perception? Is it too late? Have I strayed too far? Can I go back to what was? Is there another way to be?

If this is the dream of self-awakening, you can have it. Choices produce consequences; consequences are inevitable. To break that chain would violate the â wait a minute; whose thoughts are these anyway? Exactly what is my power in the face of this gathering evidence? Have I simply over-identified with my current thought-in-manifestation? The weight of this seriousness is too much and I cannot hear my 'other' tell me whatâs real because I seem to be insisting this is real! Kind of begs the next question: what is real?

Oh my; Iâm afraid to see that Iâve chosen a world of experience that some âotherâ part of me absolutely, positively knows is not ârealâ â I must be losing my mind. Or, Iâve lost my mind. Or perhaps Iâve found another piece of that which I left in lost memory and I am now calling it back. Yes, that seems right, now I remember, this is where I found myself after chasing that thought, that idea, thatâ.

Suddenly Iâm awake in my bed. But am I really awake? Is that the sound of Ender Dog coming to tell me itâs time to go â out, for a walk? What will I find today? Ah, today â time traveling again! Hope I find some happy momentsâ

And the meaning is...

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 18:42:00 GMT

It is the meaning that you have (already) chosen that you are now seeing, now experiencing. And yet within this moment, within this experience, you can become an Agent of Change. Accept this invitation to become an Agent of Change...

Regaining/reclaiming my knowing mind

Tue, 13 Nov 2007 17:08:00 GMT

Perhaps a better way of describing this idea of âdreaming myself awakeâ is to speak of it in terms of regaining my knowing mind. Early this morning I was partially awakened and told that âit is doneâ and now I needed to trust the working-out of my human life. Remembering that a couple of hours later I sat with it as an awareness, and a presence engulfed me with an empathic familiarity that suspended me in a warm, flowing connectedness that left me temporarily without need.

As if I was in the original sensory-deprivation float tank where my breathing was as loud as the movement of my eyeballs in their sockets, I âknewâ I was at once both the thinker of the thought about to be experienced and the front row participant/recipient of said experience. In other words the thought could not be completed (or in this case experienced) without me, the part I know so well in this world, the part I had come to believe was who I was, as if there was a separation between the two. But how can the two be separated when they only exist together? Cause and effect only exist when both are in relationship. One defines the other.

Maybe it was the electrocution that scrambled my brain that day in the tree when I reached through the veil and pulled upon the Other One I Am or maybe that was the moment that ordinarily is saved for the end of life, but regardless, today I was back in that flow and it was as if I had never left. And now, from this place I have found once again, I donât want or need to return to where I believed myself to have been just a few thoughts ago!

Having already experienced that, now I choose to return into a different expression of that experience. Is this going to be possible? Can I return into a different expression? Can I actually choose where to find myself? Will I return to where I was in an effort to tell anyone else there what I just found? Will there be anyone else there? Is there anyone there?

I think I am remembering who I amâ

Drreaming myself awake...

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 21:08:00 GMT

Nov 12, 2007 Iâve decided to dream myself awake. After all, thatâs what Iâve been talking about for all these years. It certainly has taken me a long time â or so it seems â to get here, but if Iâm going to dream a dream why not have it be a dream of awakening?

All the pieces are now being arranged in a way that finally feels right to me. Like everything else in this world of wonder, it was (is) only a matter of time. And I have been working on manipulating time for quite a while now. Perhaps more than anything else itâs about selective perception and the correct use of denial. Itâs so funny that denial â something vilified by a limited mind â has actually been the cause and effect of my world. By selectively choosing what to empower with meaning I have simultaneously been denying meaning to other options.

Iâve always somehow known that just because I couldnât find what I wanted now in no way meant it wasnât there to be found. And even though frustration led me down that one-way dead end street called futility, I still âknewâ that what I wanted was there to be claimed, just temporarily invisible. The same power of selective perception was now over-riding my current desire. Denial seemed stronger than my current ability to see what I wanted now. Time to hit the re-set button.

So now Iâve decided to dream myself awake. I figure that by remembering more and more of who I am I can arrange those pieces into the me Iâve been waiting to be. And it all begins with realizing that I have been allowing the events to appear by selecting them above other events that could just as easily have been seen. Itâs all about the meaning. Everything is about the meaning I have been looking to give to the events appearing so I could find the meaning I had chosen to give. And somehow, somewhere, I knew it wasnât what I wanted to tell with my life. I have been telling a story that absolutely in not the story I now wish to tell.

I think I had forgotten who I was.

Remember What's Important

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 14:31:00 GMT

Regardless of the current form of the distrsctions parading on your screen of life, calling upon the memory of your Original Intention is very important...

Accessing the Decision-Maker Within...

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 13:51:00 GMT

If it is the meaning we give to any event that holds the key, and if that meaning is a choice, who decides what that meaning will be? Is there an Inner Decision-Maker that can choose for me?

By Invitation Only

Fri, 9 Nov 2007 13:48:00 GMT

If everything arriving in your life is by invitation only, what am I missing?

Inside/Out

Thu, 8 Nov 2007 13:16:00 GMT

By using your life as a projective technique to glimpse your thoughts and core beliefs you begin to understand who is responsible for what's appearing.

Intuition 101

Wed, 7 Nov 2007 17:59:00 GMT

When I speak of intuition this is what I mean...

Who Am I?

Tue, 6 Nov 2007 12:35:00 GMT

Time for a little more background...

The Tree

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:55:00 GMT

Here's a peek at that day when I reached for the Heavens at age 15 and got thrown back to Earth forever changed...

Foreward / Letters From Adam

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 18:47:00 GMT

Thought it might help to provide a little info on me. Let me start with the Foreward from our book Letters From Adam...

The changless

Fri, 1 Dec 2006 16:21:00 GMT

There is a way to access that 'other' view-point and witness this world as an observer as well as an agent of change. Three simple words fully understood and accepted as truth..."This Changes Nothing." Inviting the awareness of The Awakened One (T.A.O.) you travel with within your mind shows us once again that indeed it is true: The Answer Lies Within!

YOU are the answer...

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 16:52:00 GMT

Time to disengage from and release the 'useless' thoughts that clutter our mind and crowd our stage and call upon the other thought - the one we still have safely stored away within. No need to defend; no need to delay. Listen to your other way of seeing and look upon a world reborn...

Behind the Blind Spot

Thu, 27 Jul 2006 15:48:00 GMT

We all have these well-formed and established 'perceptual-blind-spots' BEHIND which awaits our beloved 'other.' Don't argue with or do battle with the form of the blind spot, rather acknowledge its purpose, identify its function: to obscure the presence of your greatest gift to yourself, the memory of your original relationship. In the face of conflict produced by living in a world of chaos, simply announce "I know how I want to feel" and in the space created in the gap you just made, invite the 'other' interpretation. And then chuckle away the previous event that tried to hide from yourself your truth. It has come to set you free. You would like to free-up some of your mind wouldn't you? Don't let the world tell you where to focus it, but rather use it to remember...

Who knows you?

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 16:16:00 GMT

Is it time to stop listening to a voice who knows you not, and listen to the One who knows you best? Oh, you bet it is! Hope you're ready...

Answer the call...

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 17:35:00 GMT

While the repetative themes that make up our life are up for review and release, there awaits a call from within that holds the key of why we are here and what it is we came to accomplish. Hearing that call is our next goal. There is no doubt that we can fulfill our agreed-upon function, all we have to do is remember...

The Awakened Mind

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 13:47:00 GMT

The Other mind that we seek is the Awakened Mind - that aspect of true Self that we are made in the image of. When I state: "I am made in the image of the One I truly am" I reference this Awakened Mind. Now it is time to tune into it and give a listen. Once we get past the fear we will begin to remember more and more and more...

The 'Other'

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 13:42:00 GMT

The way into the Other Mind is through your personal 'Other' - that aspect of Self awaiting your attention. The gift is not of this world...

Change of Mind

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 19:18:00 GMT

If I were to say to you: "Change your mind" would you know how to go about that? Not just change your thoughths about something, but change the mind you are using to have the thoughts you are having...

Who walks with Ender...

Sat, 15 Jul 2006 16:23:00 GMT

Meet me, Will.I.Am, the One who walks with Ender, as I remember who I am and what the heck I came here to do. Along the way, if you listen, you too will find yourself 'remembering' and that can only be a good thing.

A beginning

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 17:03:00 GMT

Making my way through the dream